Tonight I am curled up on my couch with a heated blanket and the fireplace humming low in front of me. Smooth R&B fills the room, the kind of playlist that makes you breathe softer without realizing it. My work laptop is open with an unsent email blinking at the bottom of the screen, like it is waiting on a version of me I do not have the energy to be right now. My daughters are asleep somewhere behind me, little warm bundles of quiet. I have a bluetooth earpiece in, muted, w